Memorial website in the memory of your loved one

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Brian Street who was born in Michigan on March 14, 1981 and passed away  on May 30, 2004 at the age of 23 we will remember him forever.



To the world you may have been just one person, but to one person you were the world.

"Who You'd Be Today"

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today? 

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Can you see the change in me?
It may not be so obvious to you
I participate in family activities.
I attend family reunions..
I help plan holiday meals.
You tell me you're glad to see
that I don't cry anymore.
But I do cry!
When everyone has gone
- when it is safe-
the tears fall.
I cry in privacy so my family won't worry.
I cry until I am exhausted
and can finally sleep.
You tell me you admire my strength
and my positive attitude.
But I am not strong,
I feel that I have lost control;
and I panic
when I think about tomorrow....
next week....
next year.
I go about the routine of my job.
I complete my assigned tasks.
I drink coffee and smile.
You tell me you are glad to see I'm "over"
the death of my loved one.
But I'm not "over" it.
If I get overit,
I will be the same as
before my loved one died.
I will never be the same.

At times I think
I am beginning to heal
, but the pain of losing someone
I loved so much
has left a permanent scar on my heart.
I visit my neighbors.
You tell me that you're glad
to see I'm holding up so well.
But I'm not holding up well.
Sometimes I want to lock the
door and hide from the world.
I spend time with my friends,
I seem calm and collected.
I smile when appropriate.
You tell me
it's good to see me
back to my "old self"
But I will never be back to my "old self".
Death and grief, have touched my life....
and I am changed forever.


(special thanks to Selma Flynn for including this in a tribute to Brian. I don't know who you are, but thank you. )

Brian was a beautiful soul inside and out, but he just never saw it. He never knew how many lives he touched in his short 23 years on this earth. He is missed, loved and never forgotten.

On May 30th 2004 sometime in the early morning hours, Brian quietly left our world for the next. We will never understand why he felt life was just too hard to go on living. Brian was always shy, but as he got older he seemed to blossom. Several weeks before Suicide took his young life he seemed happier than we had ever seen him.  We now wonder if it was because he had made his decision and was finally at peace. The truth is we will never really know for sure what our precious son went through on that night, what torment and pain he felt. Was he scared? Did he cry? What was going through his mind?  He did not leave a note, he just simply left.

So many young people feel the way Brian did and they don't tell the people that love them the most in the world and would do anything to help. Why? Because more than likely they are embarrassed and want to try to handle it on their own. Brian did not need to feel embarrassed, we loved him, we still love him and would have moved heaven and earth to save him.

This website is dedicated to our precious son with the beautiful smile that would light up a room. Thank you for taking the time to visit.

If you or someone you know is suffering from depression or having thoughts of suicide, please don't wait, seek help immediately by calling 2-1-1.




MEMORIES
If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried...
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried...
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.

Remember Every Memory is unique, so make lots of them!





WE REMEMBER Him
At the rising of the sun and at its going down                       
We remember him.                                                        
At the blowing of the wind and the chill of winter
We remember him.
At the opening of the buds and in the rebirth of spring
We remember him.
At the blueness of the skies and in the warmth of summer
We remember him.
At the rustling of the leaves and in the beauty of autumn
We remember him.
At the beginning of the year and when it ends
We remember him.
As long as we live, he too will live; for he is now a part of us,
as we remember him.
When we are weary and in need of strength
We remember him.
When we are lost and sick at heart
We remember him.
When we have joy we crave to share
We remember him.
When we have decisions that are difficult to make
We remember him.
When we have achievements that are based on his we
remember him.
As long as we live, he will live; for he is now a part of us,
as we remember him.

Brian was the middle child of three boys. Having three boys was a handful somtimes and a joy at the same time. They were close growing up. When the boys were younger they played together all of the time. As they grew older  they shared a lot of the same friends and all hung out together. We use to have boys out in the front of the house playing hacky sack for hours, or in our back yard playing basketball. One of the homes we moved to when Brian was 15 had a nice fire pit in the back yard and many nights that is where you would find them and their friends, sitting around the fire. One night one of their freinds threw a dried out Christmas tree into the fire, it sounded like an explosion!  We looked out the window to see flames shooting up into the trees and boys running from the yard! Our house always smelled like smoke in the summer but, that was okay. We liked knowing that the boys were safe in their own back yard. If only we had the power to always keep them safe from harm.....

For summer vacations we would take the boys camping. Brian was always the first one down to the lake with his fishing pole. We always knew where to find him. He loved to fish even when he was very small.

Brian was a loving and caring person that walked to the beat of his own drum. He loved music, video games, basketball and animals. He had a special place in his heart for his dog Sadie and his Cat Sampson (who joined his buddy Brian in heaven in June of 05. Now they are together again.). His favorite band was Tool.

When Brian was 15, his Grandma and Grampa Hutchings bought him an electric guitar for Christmas, it was love at first sight! He taught himself to play and play he could! It was almost like he would just get lost in his music, he was in his own world when he played. Eventually,  he saved enough money to buy a new guitar. He was so proud of that guitar.

His favorite TV show was Ed, Ed & Eddy. He loved to imitate voices. People tell us his voices always made them laugh and their favorite one he did was the "Bell Tire" guy. He had a great sense of humor.

He loved his family and his girlfriend, Wendi, with everything he had. Why he felt he could not continue on in this life is something we will never understand. Brian was sometimes his own worst enemy and he didn't need to be. He was in a pain that we did not know or understand. He held his pain in, he didn't let us know that he was suffering. We would have done everything we could to help him if we had only known. He was such a strong and loving young man, happy, with a great sense of humor and loved to make people laugh. We loved him, still love him and will always love him.  He is so very missed.

Brian was unique, there will never be another like him. The world has lost a gentle soul.
 
Rest well our precious son, be happy and without any pain. We will be together again and until that day we will carry you in our hearts.

.............and the heavens will bless not those stars that shine the longest but, rather those that shine the brightest.............. Shine on baby




Please let us know you were here by lighting a candle  or paying tribute to Brian before you leave.  It means so much to us to know that you were here. Thank you.

To visit Brian's cousin Brady who joined him in heaven in 2005 please go to: brady-hutchings.memory-of.com

To visit Brian's grandmother who joined her grandson in 2006 please go to: http://jeannette-hutchings-reed.memory-of.com/photos.aspx 



Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take-
but by the moments that take our breath away.


When I come to the end of my journey
and I travel my last weary mile,
just forget, if you can, that I ever frowned
and remember only the smile.
Forget unkind words I have spoken;
remember some good I have done.
Forget that I've stumbled and blundered
and sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought some hard battles
and won, ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going;
I would not have you sad for a day,
but in summer just gather some flowers
and remember the place where I lay,
and come in the shade of the evening
when the sun paints the sky in the west.
Stand for a few moments beside me
and remember only my best.
  -- Author unknown







Tributes and Condolences
Haven't been here in a while   / Mom
I am sorry I haven't been to your website in a while, but I do think of you every day. I feel like all I ever tell you is how much I miss you, because I do miss you so much. You are an uncle again, Matt and Afton had a baby boy, Eli David Street. My...  Continue >>
Happy Thanksgiving   / Mom (Mom)
Here we are again, another Thanksgiving without you. You may not be here physically but you ae always with me, you are always in my heart and on my mind. I still miss you every day. I love you Brian, happy Thanksgiving to you and Grandma. Mom
Thinking of you   / Mom
I have been thiking of you so much lately. I have been feeling you near me the past few days and I know you are still with me. Some people will think I am crazy for saying that but it doesn't matter to me what anyone thinks I know you are with me. Yo...  Continue >>
Here again   / Mom
Brian Here I am again sitting here thinking about you and grandma and missing you both so much! My heart is heavy. Life is so bitter sweet now I love all my family and am greatful to have them but there is always a hole in my heart the pi...  Continue >>
Merry Christmas   / Mom
Merry Christmas son. Missed you so much. I so wish you were here with us to see Alexis enjoy her very first Christmas. Her little face just lite up with excitment. It makes me so sad that she will never meet you and you will never meet her. I show he...  Continue >>
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cant sleep  / Mom     Read >>
Happy Birthday  / Mom     Read >>
She is here!  / Mom     Read >>
Uncle / Mom (Mom)    Read >>
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Saw your picture  / Mom     Read >>
Brian / Austin Landau     Read >>
Here I am again, missing you as usual  / Mom     Read >>
Hi Uncle Brian  / Mom     Read >>
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His legacy
His Legacy  

When I think of Brian's legacy, I think about what he taught us.  I know for sure that he taught us love, understanding, sense of humor, how to argue ( he was good at that!) and how to voice your opinon when needed. He was not afraid to speak up. Sometimes that made people angry but, everyone has a right to speak up for themselves and no one should be afraid to do it. What did he learn from us? Well I can only hope that he also learned love, kindness, support and how to make his voice heard. What did he leave behind? I believe he left a peice of himself behind just as he took a peice of each one of us that loved him so with him. He left the laughter and love. He will always live on as long as we remember him.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, we would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again.

 
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