christmas / Jeannette Hutchings (grama)
hi brian,
 well another year has gone by with out you here for christmas. another empty spot in our hearts. the party was not the same without your smiling face. wendi was here she sure is a real peach. i love her so much. just keep your face smiling down on all of us. some day we will se all of you. that will be a happy reunion. have a good christmas in heaven. peace be with you. show my brady what christmas is like in heaven.peace be with you.


          lots of hugs and kisses


           grama and grandpa h Close

Dear Sweet Brian  / Mom
I miss you so much. I miss you every day, every single day. My heart is so broken and it feels like it weighs a ton, it is very heavy to carry around. There is a saying that time heals all wounds, but I do not believe time could ever heal this hurt I feel. I can only hope that time will lesson the pain, but so far that hasn't happened.

I look at the presents under the tree and a tear slides down my face for there are none there that say "To Brian". This year we bought you a winter blanket to put on your grave, how did we get to this? How did we get to where the only thing we can do for you now is put blankets, trinkets and flowers on your grave. It just isn't fair. You should be here, laughing, joking, opening presents and saying "I knew what it was the whole time" with a huge smile on your face. You should be eating the cookies I made, drinking chocolate milk and waiting for Christmas with the rest of us. Oh baby, I miss you so. I pray you are at peace and happy, that is what you always deserved and what I always wanted for all of you boys.

I kept trying to think of what I could do this year on Chirstmas to honor your memory, something special, but I just can not seem to think of anything special enough for you. I will be lighting a candle and placing outside the front door for you this year on Christmas Eve, so when you look down you will see it shining bright. Christmas Day I will release a balloon to you. I imagine meeting you in heaven some day and you will be standing there with a huge bouqet of balloons that I have sent you for every special occasion. :o) There would be too many for you to hold!

I love you Brian, to the moon and back.I am wishing you a Merry Christmas. My love for you will never die, it grows stronger every single day.

Merry Christmas baby.

All my love forever and beyond.

Your Mom

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brian / Jeannette Hutchings (grama)
hi brian,
 well we had our big bash yesterday for christmas. one more without you there. wendi was here. we had los of food. it was lots of fun. well i know you were looking down on us as we were looking up at you.


      love and miss you so much.

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Angels Are Always There!  / Shirley Tuttle

Prayers for Brian, his family, and many friends. 
Bless you sweet Angel.




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LOVE & CARE TO DEAR BRIAN!  / Jane Einarson (I care )
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Sunday, December 11th, Candle lighting ceremony  / Mom

Hi Baby,

Sheila and I tried to go to the candle lighting ceremony last night, but we couldn't find the park! After 30 minutes of driving around looking for it Wendi called me to tell me that it had been moved to a different location! So Sheila and I went back to the house and we lit candles in the front yard at 7:00 pm. We stuck them in a snow bank. They went out once so I re-lite them and moved them in front of the snow bank so the snow bank would block the wind. It worked, they were still burning this morning. I believe in my heart that you could see them. It was better having them at the house like that, I could see them from the living room. I also lite the new Christmas candle I bought you for inside the house and let it burn until I went to bed.

I love you Brian, forever and beyond.

Mom

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christmas / Grama Hutchings (grama)
hi brian,
 well we went by your site today and we put a santa on for you. well buddy this is brady's first christmas up there so help hin enjoy it. i miss you both so much. the holidays are not the same. i know you will have a heavenly christmas up there. your mom and dad miss you so much. the holidays are hard for them. well got to go. will talk to you before christmas.


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HI BRIAN  / Jane Einarson (I care )
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Blessings & care  / Jane Einarson (I care )



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miss you  / Jeannette Hutchings (grama)
hi brian,
 well i want you to know this will be another bad yeay for us. you will be with us in memory. what an empty spot in our hearts. we will try to keep your mom and dad in our hearts. grama talks to your mom often. i know shoppinis going to be another bad year for them. well say a prayer for then and keep them in your heart.


           love and miss you

           grama and grandpa.

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Christmas Blessings Brian  / Jane Einarson (I care )
Dear sweet Brian, you & your family will be in my thoughts & heart, now & always. May God watch over you all. Love & respect. XXOO Close

FOREVER CHANGED  / SELMA FLYNN
Forever Changed*



Can you see the change in me?
It may not be so obvious to you
I participate in family activities.
I attend family reunions..
I help plan holiday meals.
You tell me you're glad to see
that I don't cry anymore.
But I do cry!
When everyone has gone
- when it is safe-
the tears fall.
I cry in privacy so my family won't worry.
I cry until I am exhausted
and can finally sleep.
You tell me you admire my strength
and my positive attitude.
But I am not strong,
I feel that I have lost control;
and I panic
when I think about tomorrow....
next week....
next year.
I go about the routine of my job.
I complete my assigned tasks.
I drink coffee and smile.
You tell me you are glad to see I'm "over"
the death of my loved one.
But I'm not "over" it.
If I get overit,
I will be the same as
before my loved one died.
I will never be the same.

At times I think
I am beginning to heal
, but the pain of losing someone
I loved so much
has left a permanent scar on my heart.
I visit my neighbors.
You tell me that you're glad
to see I'm holding up so well.
But I'm not holding up well.
Sometimes I want to lock the
door and hide from the world.
I spend time with my friends,
I seem calm and collected.
I smile when appropriate.
You tell me
it's good to see me
back to my "old self"
But I will never be back to my "old self".
Death and grief, have touched my life....
and I am changed forever.

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I MISS YOU  / Wendi
Hey Brian,

I just got done listening to that song that your parents put on here.  I don't know if sunny days hurt the most.. because everyday isn't sunny, especially in Michigan :P  I just want you to know that i love you and i'm missing you like crazy right now.  I just sent an email to your mom and i've been sitting here crying ever since.  Matt was listening to tooL on the way home and it felt to me like i needed to listen to it when i got home.  Through the cd, i found some more lyrics that your wrote in your notebook.  "mention this to me"  Brian, i hurt like hell sometimes... just thinking about you.  Missing you and missing the signs.  I dream about you and it feels so real and it feels so good.  But i have to wake up from those dreams and it hurts.  I've been doing really good lately...made it through thanksgiving without a single tear in front of the family.  Most of the memories that come along are funny ones lately.  Matt works with me now and he SOO reminds me of you.  He says things sometimes and it just sends me into a day dream.  I hope matt doesn't think i'm ignoring him, cause i'm still listening...but i'm thinking of you at the same time.  The more i hang out with matt, the more i see you.  If it was you that got him that job at meijer...i thank you!  As much as it hurts to not have you here...at least theres someone that can bring back the wonderful memories of you.  I am very thankful that you shared such a loving family with me.  Brian if you hadn't shared them with me i don't know where i'd be today.  I'd feel like the only person in the world that is hurting over you.  But at least i know i'm not the only one....and at least i have someone to share the memories of you with.

Well Brian, i just want to tell you that I MISS YOU...and i love you very much.  That place in my heart where you are...it hurts sometimes, but at least you're there. It feels good to have you there.  i know my mind will forget things, but my heart never will.  I hope you feel the love we're sending you Brian.  Til we meet again

Love Always,
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Thanksgiving Day  / Mom
Hi sweetie,

Here it is,another Thanksgiving without you. I am going to miss seeing you pile your plate full of food and the complain later that you ate too much. I miss everything about you Brian.

I have a place set at the counter for you where you like to sit, with a candle buring on your plate. There will always be a place at our table for you on the holidays.

It is snowing today. We have several inches already, it is really cold and windy. Dad just went out to get some pictures of this stuff. I am glad I am inside where it is warm, you know how much I hate the cold. I hope you are nice and warm baby.

Grandma & Grampa H are coming over and so are Uncle Gary and his family and Rusty and Brad. Wendi will be here too along with your brothers and Afton. You never got to meet Afton, that is Matt's girlfriend. Yes he finally has one. :o) You would like her, she is very sweet.

Speaking of sweet, Wendi sent me a centerpiece for our Thanksgiving table. She is so sweet Brian. She misses you too. She has become a big part of our family. Thank you for bringing such a special person into this family.

I better go get working on dinner. All I can say is, I miss you with every fiber of my body and I love you down to my soul.

Love forever and beyond,

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holidays / Grama Hutchings (grama)
hi brian,
  well the holidays are coming up and you are not here to enjoy them with us. i know how you liked to eat. we are going to your house for thanksgiving. sure will miss your face not being there. i hope you all have a nice day up therei really christmas will be another loney one foe all of us. but i know you will be looking down on us to keep us safe. well brian i have to sign off now.peace be with you.


       love ya

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Hi Brian  / Nancy Street (grandma)
Hi Brian   I don't know if I'm a survivor yet but I sure have some wonderful memories watching you and your brothers grow up and coming over to your house for all those dinners and cook outs b parties your mom and dad had seeing you with your new car how proud you were and fishing going to the beach there were so many good times I feel I can go on because I have all those good times to remember and Brian grandma loves you Close

THANK YOU FRIEND  / SELMA FLYNN BOBBO.MEMORY-OF.COM (friend)
It's the time of year when we're reminded to give thanks. Instead of waiting until next year to be reminded, Let's make every day one of thanksgiving; After all, each day is a unique gift. So, give a hug for no reason; Say I love you, just because; Share a smile with a stranger; Take the time to count your blessings; Don't take anything or anyone for granted; And end each day with no regrets. Thank you, my friends and family, For sharing, caring, laughing and crying with me. I'm truly blessed to have each and every one of you in my life And I am thankful you have allowed me To be a part of yours. May you and yours have a safe and memorable Thanksgiving. Close

Hi Baby  / Mom

Oh baby, I miss you so. Tomorrow is "National Survivors of Suicide Day" and I wish I could say I am a survivior, but I just don't feel like one.  What choice do I have, but to keep going? Life keeps moving and it just pushes me along with it. My life will never be the same without you though. My goal in life now is to move through life taking you with me every step of the way. I will never forget you. I will carry you in my heart and memory. You will remain a huge part of my life just as when you were here physically with me. My love for you grows stronger every day as does the bond I have with you.

I love you my sweet son, forever and beyond.

Your mom.

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brian / Jeannette Hutchings (grama)
hi brian.
  well god hsa sent you a nother cousin. she is uncles girl her name is rhonda. she will look out for you. i know you have already meant her. well have to go get ready for her services. so will talk again soon.


      love and miss you bad.
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Miss you my sweet boy  / Mom (mom)
I am really missing you bad today Brian. I wish I could talk to you and tell you how much I love you and how sad life is here without you.   Miss you so much I can barely beathe at times. I never knew it was possible to hurt this much. Take my hand and walk with me for a while, will you sweetie?

Look for Rhonda, she joined the angels Saturday Nov. 5th. Make her feel at home and introduce her around to all the other angels.

All my love forever and beyond.
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